Always One Foot On the Ground

It's so odd, but I'm staying in Utah.

I really can't believe it when I think about the fact that I turned down my dream job. It just doesn't make any sense. But I feel right about being here for now and I feel confident that other opportunities in the Northwest will open up for me when the timing is right for me to be there.

So the good news is that we're all in Utah right now! I think we need a 4WM weekend... before our concert in March.

Daughters of God

"The poorest man is he who does not have a wife to work and make his children."


-African Proverb

(This is Ansata Bah, a 13-year old mother and wife in Guinea, Western Africa - BBC website)

"Women are one-half of the world's population, perform two-thirds of the world's work, receive one-tenth of its income and own less than one-hundredth of its property."
-The State of the World's Women 1985

First Official 4WM Event of 2007!

We're all in. Snow Patrol, OK Go, and Silversun Pickups (?) are going to rock our world! Can't wait!

If I Could Talk I Would Tell You

Can I just say I can't believe it's 2007?! Honestly, I think that each year passes more quickly. While I certainly can't complain about my experiences in 2006, I am uncertain that they prepared me for a future of settling down in any way. It's probably common to be a little anxious about choosing where to live and deciding which career path to follow, but I think that living in four places in twelve months has plagued me with a whole new set of anxieties about living somewhere, or doing something for more than a semester's worth of time.

Last night I had a dream that I got married to someone that I met less than 24 hours before the wedding. It wasn't until the ceremony was half over that I realized that I would never find happiness in the relationship, which left me sobbing, quite upset at my spouse (who only bothered to show up to the ceremony in a black t-shirt, jeans and flip-flops), and asking for an annulment. I can't help but think that this is only a reflection of my apprehension about committing myself to an employer. Sadly I have gotten so accustomed to short-term gigs that one of the only constants in my life anymore is the light at the end of every tunnel.

Happy New Year!

First Post of the New Year

Since I have regrettably been the most disappointing blogger, I felt that I might be able to redeem my failure to blog by trying to start afresh in the New Year and be the first of the Four White Mothers to post. Looking back at this past semester, I realize that it was a bizarre semester. Then as I look to the upcoming semester, I have decided that, knowing me, it will probably be equally as strange. The New Year always makes me anxious for the future and the unknown, and there are several things about myself that I have rediscovered - I hate making decisions that are life altering, I hate growing up and all that entails, and I really hate confrontation. Life would be better if we could know the consequences of all our decisions, if we could live in a carefree existence, and if things could be solved through avoidance and disregard. Okay, okay…so maybe this may not sound like a Utopian existence to you, but it’s nice to pretend that this type of life would be fulfilling and enjoyable. Let’s just hope that I will grow up and be able to follow through on decisions that are not pleasant, enjoyable, or even clear in what consequences will follow them. A friend said that their favorite quote was the following statement by Hyrum Smith: "Character is following through with a decision after the emotion of making the decision has passed.” I obviously lack character, but I am working on it…Following through is a lot easier said than done. Bleh. And on that happy note…

HAPPY NEW YEAR! May this year’s experiences bring joy, happiness, love, and laughter to our lives (so that kind of came out sounding like a Chinese fortune cookie, but I was trying to be optimistic after my depressing New Year blog…my hopefulness was kind of a failure, but at least I finally published my post).